tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-225362179908507177.post5039626891643284037..comments2023-04-17T10:34:18.603-05:00Comments on Gr3yghost's Journal: Relative GriefUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-225362179908507177.post-9601430927833982652008-03-26T19:05:00.000-05:002008-03-26T19:05:00.000-05:00Phillip, this entry worries me... I hate to see yo...Phillip, this entry worries me... I hate to see you try to put a burden this huge all on yourself. This suffering we all experience is the price we pay for the wonderful gift we once had of knowing Pierre, and I for one can say that I do not regret anything even though this is immensely painful. I don't know if my words will reach to you but I could not read this and stay silent; please, please do not blame yourself or try to take on the burden for others. Just have faith in the fact that we are all individuals w/ the strength inside to face this in our own ways, it may seem unnecessary but death is actually a part of everyone's life at some point. Maybe the suffering is not always as severe for some as losing a son, but always painful. Trust that we will all be alright, even if nothing is the way it used to be; I can believe it. I hope I am not just babbling to you...<br><br>I read in the preceding entry that you were having the memorial for Lynda on May 13th; is it still going to be a combined memorial? <br><br>--SonjaAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-225362179908507177.post-57275304851825412662008-03-27T00:35:00.000-05:002008-03-27T00:35:00.000-05:00Dear Sonja,Thanks for your note. I want to begin ...Dear Sonja,<br><br>Thanks for your note. I want to begin by telling you how glad I am to learn that you are reading the journal and how especially pleased it makes me feel to know that my words have moved you to write back. So thanks for reading.<br><br>Thanks also for your concerns. Though they may be ill-founded, it nonetheless means a lot to me that you would be worried about my well being and I wanted to write immediately to allay your fears. Though my words are often very blunt, to say the least, there is an important distinction to be made between Phillip the writer and Phillip the person. <br><br>Oh, these two are really one and the same, in many ways. But, I must make it clear to my readers that I feel perfectly free to write things here (and in other places, notably poetry) that I would never be able to say in person. <br><br>I found this remarkably liberating state of being shortly after Lynda died last November, when I realized that I could finally free the writer in myself from myself. I am now unafraid to express the raw and often unformed emotion that makes for compelling reading for just that reason. The words should make you listen. That's when I started the journal. If anything, I hope my words will be engaging, not merely worrisome, for the issues I address, the doubts of a loving and thoughtful son and father, are, I hope, matters that will resonate with many others. <br><br>Please do not worry about me, tho. I am tough, but not insensitive. I am a realist, but at heart I am a romantic. Contradictions? Oh, yes indeed. Realize, if you will, that I while I don't hope to assume the burden all on myself, I cannot hold myself blameless; while I have learned a lot, I have lost a great deal; while I know that death is inevitable, I know that the order of our deaths was not; while I have no regrets, there is still much I wish I could do. Does that sound a little better? I hope so.<br><br>Hopefully, if what you and others read here is disturbing or at least makes you think, then I shall have accomplished something. I also hope that you will all realize that these are, in the end, just words. Read what you like, ignore the tripe, and let me know when I've touched a nerve. <br><br>Again, thanks Sonja. No, indeed, my dear, you are not babbling. I'm delighted to engage in the dialogue. I am touched by your concerns and glad to know that you've been reading the journal. <br><br>We are indeed planning a memorial for Lynda, but it will not be combined with a ceremony for Pierre. As you know, we've already had a wake for him, so I am not sure if we'll have any more ceremonies.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com